Posted by Tanya K on July 19, 2004, at 9:31:21
In reply to Doctor role muddle « Tanya K, posted by Dr. Bob on July 19, 2004, at 1:33:45
I think I've reassured my GP that I don't expect the world from her,I think she was overwhelmed last year.I'm aware of her limits now,I don't think I'll crash in the way I did before.
She has faults,one is forgetting things,I can joke about it now.She's terrified of getting things wrong,like wording an important letter.
I want to stay with her because I know she will feel failure deeply if I go,and also because she is the only good GP in the practice[the others are pretty bad!I've too much insider info!]
My GP is v up to date,always ready to try something new,and appreciates I'm an expert patient on my disease,many GP's find that a threat,I dx my own iritis as rare side effect of infusion given by hospital,my GP missed it and felt bad,but I have no probs with that as my oncologist missed it too.I had to stop the drug,it was listed as "eye pain" one in 100,000!!
I read a book on cancer psychology,it said that the special patient can become the difficult patient very easily,the doc promises something and it fails,with sometimes catastrophic results,leaving the patient let down and the doc upset.
Knowing I was getting dreadful news my doc said she could be contacted out of hours,just phone surgery,I did,they told me to get lost,hearing you are dying wasn't an emergency.The receptionist wouldn't listen that my GP had told me to do this,that's what set of a dreadful chain of events for me,I realised then how much I had come to depend on my GP.
Having read up on transference I'm wondering if she realises how much I feel for her,she sees me regularly now,which appears to be a classic way of dealing with patients who latch onto docs!It keeps me sane and calm!
Actually I'd quite like to be able to change docs so I can go shopping with her instead!
love T xxxxx
poster:Tanya K
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