Posted by Froso on October 27, 2004, at 7:53:31
I'm new in this site, I wrote something in the newbies but I 've got no reply yet unfortunately regarding some other matters.
The last few months I found a way to communicate with my therapist, to overcome my embarrassment. I write to her, pages of thoughts and feelings and memories, or film scripts which narrate my life, childhood etc. In the beginning I thought she would never accept it as it is an unorthodox method but she did and that made me very happy. We don't discuss much about them as she understands that they are things I find hard to talk about, my taboo topics. And suddenly I felt close to her although she looks cold and detached (I don't know what kind of therapy it is. we meet twice a week and sit on opposite chairs)because she finally saw after three years of therapy my inner thoughts and feelings but as she said herself :"this isn't therapy." Lately I'm not writing as I've been feeling suicidal and I haven't even told her about that as I don't want her to see I need her so much or that I long for her full attention. (I had a psychotic episode 3 years ago and I'm on medication too).
I hope someone answers to this. Nice to meet you all.
Froso
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