Posted by alexandra_k on October 31, 2004, at 20:00:57
I have made my decision.
I didn't really have the 'boundary talk' with T1. But she did bring up the seeing two clinicians at the same time issue. I told her that I would have been more worried if she hadn't brought it up, because of boundaries. She seemed a bit suprised at that. But said that she couldn't really keep on seeing me without him knowing about it.
But I don't want him to know. I have everything to lose (as T1 won't keep working with me unless T2 is). I was supposed to tell him (T2) about it and talk to him about it this week. But I have decided to send her (T1) an email instead telling her that I am very sorry but I am not going to tell him, and I can't see her anymore.
I knew that seeing them both like that was a bad idea and that I had everything to lose.
These last couple of weeks have made something increasingly clear to me, however: If I have to choose I know which. She is lovely. But I think it would be good for me to work through some of my anger transference, and that seems to come out a whole lot more with T2. And everytime he deals with my anger appropriately I come to respect him even more.
No more T timing for me.
I was just so afraid I'd end up with nothing.
I shall post when I have sent the email (so I have to send it now!)
And I shall tell him about it. Before next year. How is that? Progress?
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