Posted by daisym on February 19, 2005, at 18:55:41
In reply to Re: Emotional Abandonment » daisym, posted by littleone on February 18, 2005, at 17:59:46
Ah -- the memory thing. I've always been good at visual replay. I think it is why I got such good grades. Sometimes I can't reconstruct sessions, but usually I try to journal them before they get distorted in my brain. For example, he said, "it is OK to rest from all of this on the weekends." Two days later I had it twisted to, "I wish you would give it a rest over the weekend (ie, don't call me)" But, I went back and reread my journal and nope, that is not what he said. It also helps that I go a lot, I think.
I think for a long time I held myself emotinally apart from most people, except maybe my children and my siblings. I didn't even really recognize I did this until I entered therapy. I was available to help them, but I didn't trust anyone with my emotional stuff. I think you got it right, we almost expect to be abandoned at some point.
It is interesting that you describe your therapist as leaving when you are the one who physically leaves his office. It should be an interesting thing to explore.
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