Posted by LittleGirlLost on August 22, 2005, at 8:53:55
In reply to It's Friday now... » LittleGirlLost, posted by Daisym on August 19, 2005, at 12:30:34
> How did it go? Did it help to bring your bunny? I've brought a friend like that once.
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> How are you feeling today? I just wanted you to know you aren't alone out there.
> DaisyHi Daisy,
Thank you SO much for thinking of me. And I apologize for not responding sooner, but my computer at home has been giving me trouble, so I have to read the board at work when I can.
It went ok I guess. We talked about it, and believe it or not, I think that helped some. I didn't feel AS bad after leaving, so I guess that is good. I don't remember much about the session; it seems I've been dissociating a lot. I told her that I was nervous about being there because I feel so awful when I leave. I even told her that I wasn't fully there for the same reason. She said she understands how painful it must be for me, and to not be able to hold on to the connection. I just nodded my head yes. However, I don't know if that's completely it. I mean I do have a hard time holding on to the connection, but I also find that it's almost easier to try and forget that she exists when I'm not there because if I do think of her I get sad. I didn't want to tell her that though.
I felt much more comfortable when I was leaving and wish I could have stayed; it takes me toooo long to warm up.
And yes, I brought Bunny!! T liked her and she even held her the whole time!! Sometimes I bring my doll, and she likes her too. She said I could bring whoever I want. Sometimes I feel silly, and sometimes I feel in my belly that I just have to bring her. Maybe now I will rotate with my doll and Bunny.
And I didn't call her the next day like I usually do! I didn't feel as panicky. It started a bit last night though so maybe I will call today; I don't know. Now I'm afraid that if I don't call she will forget about me.
Thank you for thinking about me Daisy; you are very kind. :)
~LGL
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