Posted by daisym on November 17, 2005, at 0:53:02
In reply to Re: Today's session ... update » Pfinstegg, posted by Annierose on November 14, 2005, at 17:37:33
Annie,
I'm just getting back to this today. I'm finding that I am having a tough time right now, feeling too young to write and then wanting to write tons and tons.
My sister told me last fall about her abuse. She sort of dropped it on me during a phone call. She blamed me - since I was so much older (9 yrs)--she said I should have protected her. I was too devastated to do much except listen. She doesn't know about me -- I've been busy supporting her. I just can't tell her, too much guilt about it all. If I'd told she might have been saved. Her rage at me is similiar to mine at my mom. I was very much her mother and still am. She emails often now but has dropped out of therapy. She said it was too hard. She used a lot of drugs in her teens and twenties so she has an arrested development at about 16. Emotionally she is very much a teenager.
I'm sorry you had a rough session but it does sound productive. I think we sometimes need to retest the connection before we can move to the next level, whatever that is. It is hard to take in the reassurance when we feel so incredibly needy. My therapist tells me often that it is OK to be mad at him for being unavailable at times. Separation anxiety is absolutely the worst!
I hope the rest of your week is better.
Hugs from me,
Daisy
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