Posted by gardenergirl on December 9, 2005, at 7:23:50
In reply to Thank you for the trigger warning :) » gardenergirl, posted by Dinah on December 8, 2005, at 17:53:36
> I'm so sorry about your neck. :( The pills aren't helping? I have an old bathing injury, and heat often helps it.
Heat is helping a tiny bit, but the effects don't last. :( Hopefully the anti-inflammatory and the muscle relaxant will help.
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> How about a bit of both? I remember the time I went to therapy with my first bout of kidney stones and I sure wanted to cancel, without any help from my therapist being late. It's hard to be therapeutic when you're in a cold sweat.I agree. I've gone before with a massive headache, and it was very hard to concentrate. But I suspect that even if I had been feeling okay, the longer I waited, the more likely I would have wanted to run. In thinking about this, I'm not sure quite what's going on, but I think I don't want to face him for some reason. Maybe I'm mad at reducing frequency? I might also be feeling bad enough about something (bad about myself about a certain issue) that I'm projecting this onto him, and then dreading seeing him? I don't know. Didn't sleep well last night, woke up early, and had these thoughts zooming around in my head.
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> But I also remember those few times when he's more than his usual ten minutes or so late. By the time he gets to twenty, I'm combined fuming and anxious and halfway sick just from that. Yet I just extend the time period that I'm willing to wait and am polite if somewhat pointed when he comes to get me.That's so funny. That's exactly how I was feeling, although not really fuming yet. I was sort of flat.
>Did you ever find out what was going on? Did he call with copious mea culpas? I think that's the least you deserve.
Nothing yet. I emaile d him last night, but it was likely after he went home for the day. He's occasionally returned my emails, but only if they pertain to scheduling issues. He's NEVER called me except to cancel once and to tell me he was running late another time. I suppose he's likely to apologize, and I'll politely say, "It's okay" even if it's not. Grrrrr. I'm realizing I'm not so assertive with him.
Sigh, more grist.
gg
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