Posted by littlegirllost on January 24, 2006, at 15:26:52
In reply to Re: Intense feelings for T » littlegirllost, posted by littleone on January 15, 2006, at 23:50:04
> You remind me a lot of me. I’m sorry it takes me so long to reply. I find posting hard and usually have to let things percolate a bit before responding. It’s no reflection on you. I like talking to you.
>>> Thanks, and backatcha! :)
My posting is usually very sporadic either because I just don't have the time to keep up, but also because reading these posts also tends to stir up all my feelings for T.> I’m not sure if this is a problem for you or not, but I know I have problems holding on to my T. I can’t remember what he looks or sounds like. Sometimes he’s so far away from me I wonder if he was someone I made up. I just can’t stay connected to him. I know sometimes it was bad to leave him because I could already feel him disappearing. It even felt like he was leaving me (rather than me walking away) which brought up abandonment fears.
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> Is any of that like what you experience?>>>>Yes, very much so. Often I come home not feeling like I really "saw" her. I don't have such great eye contact to begin with, but even when I'm looking at her, I may not actually see her. So then it's harder afterwards. Sometimes I will sit there and tell myself (during the session) to take notice of what she is wearing, at least the color, so I will have proof later... sort of... It is hard though. And some weeks are harder with no real explanation either.
ugh...
lgl
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