Posted by littlegirllost on January 13, 2006, at 11:48:15
In reply to Re: Intense feelings for T » LittleGirlLost, posted by littleone on January 10, 2006, at 14:51:51
> Hi there :) I'm glad you felt safe enough to check in with us. If you can, I'd love to hear more from you.
~*~ Thanks, I appreciate that. I always feel like a burden and struggle with feeling accepted, so I tend to stay quiet. Though I also want to mention to you and anyone else that my email is always open.
> Sorry to hear you're not doing so well. It can be really tough to keep going sometimes.
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> I find that those feelings are the worst when I lose all hope. When I can't see that things will improve. When I can't see that things will ever be better. Once or twice I've asked my T to tell me how things will improve, what that will look like, how it will feel, if he really does believe it will get better. And when he replies with such conviction, it helps me a lot. Can you ask your T to give you some hope?~*~ I like that idea and maybe I can try it... if I remember. I find that as soon as I walk into her office, I feel better (or at least forget how bad things really are)... sorta like taking a klonopin. :)
> You might have already said this previously (but I forget stuff a lot), but what does your T say about your intense feelings for her?
~*~ Well, I don't actually tell her most of them. Basically I just tell her how hard it is to leave. I think she can read between the lines about the rest, but there's just so much, and I'm embarassed and judge myself and my thoughts/feelings very harshly.
> What sort of things does she say you should do to help with them or cope with them? I know you check in with her fairly often, but I forget what else you do.
~*~ Well she lets me call or email whenever I want, and surprisingly (or not) her rules about that are not as harsh as mine!
She has also given/let me borrow a little elephant statue she had on her shelf; so I can always hold that. The problem is, I don't know what more she CAN do. I'm thankful that I can call and stuff, so why do I still feel this way? :(lgl
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