Posted by crushedout on January 28, 2006, at 17:06:05
In reply to Re: Googling my current T--more triggers, posted by B2chica on January 28, 2006, at 16:46:23
thanks, b2c. i need to let so much out. i want to get it all out of me forever. i don't know if it's possible.of all the rotten pictures to have to see--why this one??? why? it's like my worst nightmare. the thing i always tried to push out of my mind, telling myself not to imagine how things could be, because i couldn't really know.
now i know. it's exactly how i thought. and that f*cks me up i don't know why.
i want to hate her so badly (please! someone make me hate her! can you?) but i can't. i still just love her. i see her faults and i love her. and it hurts so bad because i just want to be that little girl more than anything else in the world. why can't it be so? my inner two-year-old simply refuses to accept that this is how things are, how they must be.
poster:crushedout
thread:603729
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20060121/msgs/603822.html