Posted by llrrrpp on May 22, 2006, at 10:42:39
In reply to Re: disordered thinking, part 2 trigger, posted by llrrrpp on May 22, 2006, at 8:51:22
Actually, monday's not so bad, so far. I'm super anxious, and I feel kinda weak and trembly, but I've also got this euphoria, which probably comes from the calorie restriction. All in all, could be much worse. And the weather's gorgeous. I had a protein shake for breakfast. Whey protein. I heard that's supposed to be good for my neurotransmitters. I'm thinking my T doesn't work on mondays, as I've not heard from him. I guess all hell's going to break lose tomorrow, instead of today. Goody. I guess I feel some relief that it's out of my hands. I know I could call him and get in touch that way, but I feel good now. I don't have the guts to call. I hate talking about this stuff, but over the phone is so difficult, becuase I can't tell how my conversational partner is reacting to what I'm saying. I don't think I know T well enough to figure out what makes him angry, what makes him pleased, what makes him sympathetic.
I also feel bad, because when I signed on for therapy about 2 months ago, I downplayed my symptoms because I was worried about the consequences if someone finds out how sick I am. So, I think T thought he was getting a student with mild depression and procrastination issues. Now look at the mess on his hands... hmmm
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