Posted by orchid on May 24, 2006, at 14:10:49
In reply to Re: For Orchid dear..., posted by B2chica on May 24, 2006, at 13:36:55
> Hi Orchid!
> thank you so much for the complements. you're such a sweetie. and i AM feeling better these days.
> ya, i really think the last batch of meds i was on made the world of difference. plus in therapy i got lots of gunk out before my T had to leave. didn't have time to process it, but got it out to the one man (T) i've trusted. i feel good about that.
----Orchid
Good for you. I am glad your ex T helped you that much.>
> >>Could it be that your current T is helping you more than you realize?
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> sorry, i have to chuckle at this. i actually stopped seeing that (female) T just over a month ago. so maybe that is saying something? (haha to her)
-----Orchid
Chuckle:-) Maybe then that is what is contributing to your good mood :-) ha ha ha. Good for you.
> i do think that my good T gave me many things to hold on to, and helped me to see the strength inside. but since i stopped seeing him i also stopped talking about the 'deep' issues. maybe it's better that way. (at least for now).----Orchid
True - sometimes it is better to stop dealing with the difficult issues and get on with our other parts of life - such as trying to get a child etc. You don't have to work on all of it at one shot.
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> also, i did graduate, so the school/classes thing isn't hovering over my head like before.
> also, hubby and i are trying to get pregnant so i think that's keeping me in good spirits for now. been off meds since mid march. and so far so good. but i've been off them before and it lasted about 5 months before i got hit hard with depression and spazzed thinking. so i'm hoping for at least a few more months of sanity.
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> the nasties are being held at bay. i do feel stronger and more able to take care of myself. some dysthymia but not bad. overall though, i really think reading and posting at babble is a pretty good supplement to therapy right now.
> my pdoc does want me to see someone at least to keep tabs on me for a little while so he suggested another woman in his office. i have an appt next week but i'm not getting my hopes up.
> anyway...
> thank you very much for your kind words.----Orchid
I stopped my pain medications at mid March as well - in the hope of leaving some time off before any trying for a child. So maybe we will end up going through it together :-)
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> you sound like you are getting much stronger too. doing what is best for you.
> cares
> b2c.---Orchid
Yes. I realized over the last week, that FWIW, my therapists did end up playing very important role in my life, and it is only good that I try to acknowledge that and not try to minimize the impact or their role. Rather i figured it is time to acknowledge it for what it really was - some amount of caring and good will and affection and some amount of account overdrawn notices at the end :-) And that seems ok now. Hopefully it will last.
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