Posted by Scentedgarden on January 28, 2007, at 18:23:48
In reply to Re: Has your therapist ever.? -very long - sex tri » Scentedgarden, posted by frida on January 28, 2007, at 11:51:30
> Scentedgarden,
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hi frida> I just wanted to say I've read your post...and I am sending you support through all this.
**********thank you ...
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> I wish it didn't hurt so much. I can understand part of it because I am deeply attached to my T, but I see her as a mother. I wish she were my mommy and I fantasize about her as a mother that will come and hold me and stroke my hair, and hold my hand and tell me it'll be ok..and tell me she loves me..I too have given her a lot of gifts and she blends the boundaries for me quite a bit.***what do you mean, plz elaborate a little for me, on the blending thing,as all im thinking is of a blender making runny soup...
> i understand deep attachment, and I can't imagine not having my T in my life.
***someone just pointed out to me that my inner child has only been awakened 2 yrs ago so she is still vulnerable...how can my t think its time to leave me? she is wrong . i know she is wrong now...but she thinks she is right...she doesnt normally do nthis type of therpay work using the relationship...
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> I know sharing all you have shared here with your T is so hard and difficult.But maybe you can start a little smaller, and at least let her know you are hurting? She might be able to help you...Maybe you can let her know you are hurting, and you are struggling with feelings for her? at least start small and see where that takes you?
****please see the post 'does anyone think i should just leave therpay now?...
I think going through your next sessions without telling her anything and hiding how you truly feel and just pretending you are ok will be very painful for you..
*******the pain is already killing me ... i cant do this anymore i want out...i want to run... i want to be whole...i cant think straight, i have a child here crying and talking like a very little girl..and where is my therapist?
****at home f*cking her husband...God forgive me for my angry jealousy...oh im so sorry truly i am...and i never ment this to happen..
> I know you feel scared of telling her all this..but maybe if you set yourself a smaller goal you can tell her a little so she could help you find some relief to it?
****i wish that was true ...but i cant go throught is till 27th feb... thats my next appt...waiting that time for one hour..!
***i feel she thinks our relationship is stable now...that im almost out the door, so she doesnt have to worry about me anymore...but,i was more honest to her secretary on the phone last week than i was in the bloody session..although i did cry as toddler for most of the time and we had an hour and a half...
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> I wish I could help more,you are hurting so much, I wish you could find some relief to this soon...****you just having you reply and take time to write to me like this from your heart is what helps, and is supporting me...
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> sending you support,***thank you deeply for caring and replying, and to all who casre but cant reply thnak you too.
sg
****else like to help me please comment i really need some of your help ...im sorry this is complex for you all..
GOD BLESS YOU ALL
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