Posted by jammerlich on July 11, 2007, at 11:02:34
In reply to Jammer, how's it going?, posted by TherapyGirl on July 11, 2007, at 7:43:35
Shouldn't it feel better now that she's back?
I really thought it would, but it just doesn't. Not at all. All the pain and longing is so much more intense. And I thought it was awfully intense before! I don't understand this at all. I see her again tomorrow and just the time b/w Monday and now has felt as long as her vacation.
I did the thing I didn't want to do on Monday....be virtually mute. But she tried really hard. I can't fault her at all. She's more than doing her job. I just can't seem to do mine. I think it requires an element of "letting go" that I can't seem to allow myself to do. It's so very frightening.
The pain is palpable; but, I'm trying not to think about it. It's just not working very well.
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