Posted by rjlockhart on July 16, 2007, at 0:30:09
In reply to Re: I am feeling very serious and i need YOU to talk » KayeBaby, posted by Phillipa on July 15, 2007, at 14:21:46
I self talk in my head to calm myself down. Before i do something i should not do.
Now its again night time, 12:07 currently, i am like this at night. I have another part of me that comes out. You know the biggest regret taht i feel..............is not doing something i should of.
Now during the day.............i forget what i do right now. Now its perfect what i said last night. When i wake up in the morning im very nice nad everything.
The reason i know im not a psychopath is because i have feelings for others, but when someone screws me around, im going to be honest, im very mellow, i dont know what to say,
You know i realize the reason i am feeling all of this internal hell is because i do not know what to socialize about, thats why in past i have taken amphetamines, speed to do this.
You know for a online communitity i am glad for advice you are giving me. What i really want is someone to tell me how to get even with someone, i almost went to a freaking "demonic" for advice but you know what does is it turns on you!
What i see myself is an outsider because i cant really talk about things. It makes me depressed, insantly i thought it was other that where doing this to me.
Now What i feel like doing to this person XXX XXX after whats she has done to me, she will gossip and try to be funny. You know i cant stand a person that is like this. I would really throw her across the room if i saw her again.
Thats why at the GAP me and her are definely not scheduled, together. They know we will fight.
But in concluision i need to calm down after this tear, and be civil but you i just got to express my emotions somewhere.
And this is secret only with you all.
So thank you and i appriciate all everyone of you all's advice.
M
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