Posted by annierose on July 20, 2007, at 15:14:13
I'm in the middle of too much missing.
My brother died just about 4 weeks ago, and this morning was the burial (he was cremated). Witnessing my parent's grief was difficult but I amaze myself at my ability to comfort them in their sadness. Once in my car, I was alone in my grief. No one to share that experience with me. None of the spouses came - just immediate family.
My daughter is away at summer camp for 4 weeks. I have no contact with her besides letters (no phone calls, no e-mails). I miss her voice but not her laundry. I won't see her again for 2 more weeks.
My therapist is on her summer vacation. It's been only one week so far, and I won't see her again for two more - what seems to me - very long weeks.
I feel so stuck in my grief - immobilized. I'm unable to go to my yoga classes, unable to begin writing sympathy acknowledgments, unable to do much of anything. I wish I could cry but the tears won't come.
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