Posted by B2chica on July 24, 2007, at 12:01:35
In reply to Re: (((((B2chica)))))) » B2chica, posted by jammerlich on July 24, 2007, at 11:42:56
you'll never guess.
my T just called.
she was surprised that i was still at work. it seems that she checked her messages last night and there was nothing there. she checked just a bit ago and it was there...so she thought i had just called. she said she felt SOOO bad. she was so sorry she wasn't there to help.
she wanted to know when i see her next and if we should meet sooner. i told her my delimma. do i wait and let things scab over? or do i talk sooner. i thought sooner...but she had a cancellation tomorrow...yikes, sooner than i thought. now the bad news is that since i'll be home watching little one tomorrow, i'll have to take her with me. i told T this and that i can't get into emotional stuff cuz i don't want to get to emotional for drive home and such with little one.
she said that is definately ok. that we'll talk tomorrow about 'grounding' and what to do if happens again. and then the 9th i can debrief trigger and such.
so i guess the decision is made....though i'm worried i might cancel tomorrow. why?? i don't know...fear must be.related? sounds to me like we are. tu madre loco, definate trust issues in general but especially with women.
actually it's because of my great x-T (male) that i even tried a female T. and if i'm going to trust a female T, she will be the one. so that's good. but it's just getting there i guess.i told her i thought it was SO weird that a recent picture triggered feelings of past but with current age of abuser??? confusing to me. she said it was all part of the PTSD stuff and we could go into it more tomorrow. she was hesitant to go into stuff on phone and worry about me having to go back to work ...she said she's protective of me....it's kinda stupid but when she says that, it makes me feel good...but yet disbelief...i guess it's cuz a women's never been that way toward me.
sorry got so long.
but had to tell you.
Thanks jammer.
b2c.
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