Posted by muffled on July 25, 2007, at 0:36:00
Am I TOTALLY unrealistic here?
I have written something similiar B4, and Dinah gave an EXCELLENT answer, BUT....
My T ISN'T "there" for me :-( This is the whine part.
I am an adult, and I have learned my coping stuff, and T thinks I doing so good so she trying to terminate, but I am a wimp. This is the wimp part.
But I DON'T understand...as Dinah says, T is 'there' in that she wishes me well. I know this, this is good. I also think she meant that she wanted me to understand clearly that she NOT dumping me.
BUT, somehow, as usual, I have managed to get it all turned round in my head to thinking it means: that she is 'there' for me to support me when I get all messed like I do sometimes...but of course that is irrational for me to think such a thing. Thats the dumb**ss part.
NOONE is 'there' totally for ANYbody. I kinda wished she hadn't of said that. She said it to the ikid too. Mebbe thats where the prob is comming from, why I can't seem to let this go.
Or mebbe I just getting all messed and wish I could hear her being calm. She makes me calmer. But now its like she don't exist.
I wish she was not so gone :-(
Ikids so sad.
Things getting messed.
Screamers been screaming.
So T is NOT "there" for me is she? IS SHE???????
I getting mad and messed.
See, I am a whining dumb**ss.
So the point is...I guess I'd regret it if I left a voicemail telling her this stuff?
Proly piss her off lots.
Or worse, just make her feel bad.
M
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