Posted by gardenergirl on August 10, 2007, at 22:15:23
In reply to Re: What to do---long, posted by DAisym on July 27, 2007, at 20:29:31
Hi Daisy,
Not sure why I missed this one, sorry. You have it right, I think, about how I felt before this happened, and how it has affected that feeling. It's not unlike the time before when I mentioned a date for termination and he suggested two months later. I thought, "Um, he thinks I'm crazier than I thought?" or something like that. And then of course due to circumstances, we didn't end up terminating then.I still don't know what I'm going to do about termination. I wasn't sure I was going to be enrolled for any credit this fall, and that was a factor in my decision before. Apparently I was wrong about assuming that mattered, but anyway. I am going to be enrolled this fall after all, so I suppose now we could go another semester, actually probably a whole year if we decide that's best. That's good, but it's also confusing. Do I take advantage of the "free if you don't count tuition costs" therapy with a great T and continue? Or do I "fly on my own" as you said, as I had planned?
And the hell of it is, I can't even talk to him about it, unless we talk on the phone, which he and both suck at, until I get back from my trip at the end of the month. So it will be another four weeks or so between sessions. It's so messed up. As I write this, I realize that's not how we should end things, and it would probably take a while to get things back on track even if I do decide to go ahead with termination. So I'm guessing I'll go for a good two or three months more at minimum. Guess I'll know more when I finally get to see him again. Though this reminds me, I need to email him to let him know about the enrollment thing. And how off my understanding of the D-word requirements was. :)
Ramble ramble ramble....it must be obvious I'm still confused. But not as upset and absorbed with this as I was at first.
I'll try to get my hands on that book before I see him. It sounds like that chapter might be really helpful. What you wrote is spot-on, I think---good insights. Thank you.
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> I'm sorry you have to wait so long to see him again. In this situation, it truly stinks.Thanks. It does stink. And two more weeks of stinkadge beyond that now, since I decided that Mom and I needed to be with my sis before they start inducing her. I really wish that baby could wait til Friday or Saturday. That's not too much to ask, is it? ;)
Thanks,
gg
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