Posted by muffled on September 14, 2007, at 9:35:42
In reply to Re: Those icky topics in threapy » Sigismund, posted by Wittgenstein on September 14, 2007, at 1:46:41
*** Yes, I do. I think the problem for me at the moment is trust - knowing he would understand, and not laugh at me (I'm always afraid he doesn't believe me or is secretly laughing at how pathetic I am). I was made to feel ashamed of myself and my body growing up - and now when I try to talk about this and certain other things it feels like I am trying to feed myself to the sharks. Why should he be any different?
*** I don't know what's normal and what's not. What to expect as a 'normal' reaction. I need him to give me some validation - I so desperately need that but then he sits there in silence or only mutters a few words - it leaves me hanging in the air, while a voice inside me cries out to be comforted. Maybe he assumes I just know what is right and what is not, what is normal and abnormal.
What you said here wittit is WONDERFULLY PUT IMHO.
Can you take this to T? Or makes notes and tell him just this? You put it SO well.
Some T's are more blank slate....mine is not, and I like her for that, but she does keep her cool..remind me I said this when I start doubting her again when I get all scared! Ya, so I just wanted to mention this good words you wrote, they SO bang on, I can't rephrase it any better.
Be good to yourself.
Your kinda got messed as a kid, but I can see much goodness shining thru in your writings. You gonna do OK.
Take care.
Muffled
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