Posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 9:51:37
In reply to I don't know what I'm feeling tonight....., posted by LadyBug on May 27, 2008, at 21:41:41
Oh Ladybug,
I am so saddened by this. I thought she would do something to repair what she did, I just don't understand it. I feel angry at her for just letting you go without a fight or at least if she tried. grrrrrrrrr. I am not sure if those feelings ever leave us, it is like a parent dying or something. At the end of June, it will be a year since I left my T, and it still hurts. I thought it would get better, and maybe parts of it has, but there is this huge empty feeling in my heart that still grieves him.
I am glad you got to say your say at least, I think it is important step in moving on. But all those years, Ladybug, it will take I think a long time to put that behind you. You are hurting so much right now, and I wish I knew what to do to help you, but I can't take away what happened, the only thing to do it is accept it even if it hurts like hell.
Life is unfair to some of us, it seems like everything goes wrong, and I don't know why some of us have to take the brunt of it. My T thinks there is something that will come out of all this suffering, well I am not so sure.
I don't remember if you are on any meds, but it might be a good idea for depression. You have had so many life changes, I don't know how you can get through all of that without depression at the very least of things.
Have you thought about getting a new pet or something ? I know that seems like a silly thing to say but having something that needs you and looks forward to seeing you sometimes can help the loneliness. It is helping me lately. I love my guinea pigs, they like to cuddle with me and lick my face like a dog. It is so cute they get excited when I feed them, clean their cage, etc. They just get up on their hind legs and look at me through their cage, wanting me to take them out to play.
I am glad you are working, I am sure that is helping some. Ladybug, I picture you in my head and I just want something good to happen to you, you are special and I can't be the only one that sees that.
Ladybug, you can lean on me if you like, like I have leaned on you in the past. We can get through this together.
Love,
HF
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