Posted by Happyflower on June 15, 2008, at 20:06:30
In reply to Re: also, posted by muffled on June 15, 2008, at 19:51:42
oh, Muffy, Thanks. My current T already knows this and has heard all of what I have said here. I am not feeling triggered(it isn't that bad), just justified anger I believe. I feel this anger might be a good thing, getting it out. I have mixed feelings too, I still have found memories too. I told my current T that it feels like when you are mad at your kids. It is hard, because you care a lot about them and love them, but sometimes they still make you angry. It is a confusing feeling, a guilty feeling, that I wished I didn't feel. Part of my posting above is probably mostly a vent about this. I probably wouldn't have the time or money to even spend on this in court but I know I would have a case, that is for sure.
I requested to my T in writing and by a phone message that I wanted to have a session, and to call or email me back.
I am just feeling mad right now, the intensity will pass, so really I am okay, just angry. I worked out at the gym today really hard today and it helped. I told my T in the letter that if this can't get worked out, and if I can't feel good about seeing him there, that I was going to quit the gym, but only as a last resort. I really like it there, the people are so friendly and I have made a lot of friends there. So who knows.
Muffy, I know you care, and are wanting the best for me. I think in my heart I need to confront him, because not much has helped. Thanks again.
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