Posted by TherapyGirl on January 23, 2009, at 6:35:03
In reply to Re: I made it home and see T in an hour » TherapyGirl, posted by muffled on January 22, 2009, at 6:11:48
Sorry, Muffled. I've been less than functional the last few days and I missed this post.
T was okay, but ended with her holding me while I cried like a baby and said, "What am I going to do when you're not here?" She just kept saying it was going to be okay, but I think we all know it's not.
We have, I think, figured out that my thyroid is making everything worse. I had radioactive iodine treatment a little over 6 weeks ago and I think it's gone now. They have not started the replacement hormone.
So the last three days, if I'm not on Xanax I cry uncontrollably. I got the endocrinologist's office to do the blood work yesterday, crying the whole time I was there. I said to them, "I know you don't know me but this is not something I would EVER do. I want to talk to someone about starting back on the thyroid replacement or expediting the lab work." And they didn't let me nor did they call me back all day yesterday. I'm so close to losing my mind it's not funny.
And I've lost my closest friend, at least temporarily, because I was horrible to her when it first started and I couldn't figure out what was going on. I did apologize and I cried and we hugged, but she needs a break from me right now. I don't blame her a bit, but it makes it that much harder.
I had two T appointments in two days and we've had phone calls in between. She's very worried and because of our long history, she doesn't get worried unnecessarily. It's bad. Really, really bad.
I hate my life. I'm just not sure how much longer I can do this.
Thanks, though, Muffly. You're a good friend to me and I appreciate it.
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