Posted by SlugSlimersSoSlided on January 27, 2009, at 8:18:16
In reply to I need help, I am so scared, My dreams, Triggers, posted by SlugSlimersSoSlided on January 27, 2009, at 1:04:52
Well I did fall asleep, as hard as I tried not to, and not dreams.
I know my PTSD had been triggered due to something that happened in my internship at a juvnile center.
Things got out of control with this group I was working with, they were testing me because it was my first time alone with them. One kid got up and closed the door and when I asked him to open it, he wouldn't. So many thing went through my head at that moment of the bad stuff that could happen to me. I asked him again to open the door, and he wouldn't again. I felt really scared, and just walked out after the door was finally opened.
They got in a lot of trouble, in fact 2 of them were due to be released the next week, but now the release date was extended for months. The whole incident was handled very badly by my supervisor and others. They didn't even talk to me to have the full story and the kids got sanctioned. Now they are asking after the fact for information.
The kids are very angry, one is a high up member of a gang, it is scary. I feel my safety was compromised.
I have having suffocating dreams too, I keep waking up all night thinking I am sufficing.I am having dreams about being on an out of control roller coaster.
I see how all these dreams could be something about the preset and the past. These dreams seem worst than any real abuse that has happened to me.
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