Posted by rskontos on June 29, 2009, at 16:51:14
It has been several sessions I leave thinking what a complete waste of time. When have you had enough. I mean when do you know done is done.
I don't think I have the energy or nerve to find another although one has been recommended by my neuro.
I don't think therapy is going to make a non-misfit of me. That is how I feel after i interact with people. A complete misfit.
I am sad. Tired of having to keep it altogether when all is not together inside my head.
I am having nightmares but can't remember them to tell anyone.
I am having panic attacks and I guess the only reason right now to go back to t is he is my p-doc and prescribes my panic attack meds. My anxiety is super high.
It sucks because I feel like I am stuck in a vaccuum.
Ånd I dissociated today having my teeth cleaned. WTF is that? I cam e home and was screaming inside my head and shaking all over. And of course I had to try and get through the rest of the exam etc and act "normal". My anxiety is through the roof.
I am not sleeping well either. SEveral nights last week I did not go to sleep under 7 am. Told p-doc and nothing. He just looked puzzled. Maybe it is just the hot middle of the summer and he isn't on his game and I never professed to having game.
Sorry I am a complete mess and have been for weeks and I am tired of having to try and hang in there.
I told p-doc this and I can't even remember what he said. Probably wasn't anything.
I want a rock to crawl under and never come out.
rsk
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