Posted by rskontos on June 29, 2009, at 18:57:26
In reply to Re: I think I am bored with therapy and so is t » rskontos, posted by antigua3 on June 29, 2009, at 17:06:39
I haven't thought about that things might be trying to come out and I can't let them. I avoid going to bed because of my dreams, which again I don't remember them necessarily, just the bad feelings.
How do you explore heightened/dissociative feelings when you don't know why you dissociated or learn to survive doing that because you dissociated. I don't know what is making the dissociation and anxiety at an all time high. I mean I do but I don't if that makes sense. I know dissociation at my extreme level is due to abuse/trauma but I can't fr*gg*ng remember it. I can remember how it felt but not visually. Just physically do I have the somatic memories.
I know I worked hard to stop the flashbacks and memories when they were surfacing earlier. Now the faces I seen in my flashbacks I don't know who they are, just that I am terrified.
Thanks, I know how hard it was for you to answer. I appreciate it.
rsk
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