Posted by rjlockhart37 on May 17, 2020, at 12:23:15
In reply to dreams till the end, posted by rjlockhart37 on May 5, 2020, at 1:50:20
that was my first, and ambition i thought about right afte high school, stock trader, broker, working with finance. But then all these bad events happened, ripped on off meds, no way i could go back in the state i was in redo what i started. Like right now, i'm looking into audio engineering, i'm in school for info security, but its like im not retaining the info. That would not be good, getting a job, then forgetting and not being able to work with the team. Have to be on the high dose of dexamphetamine to keep up.
Life after 2006, felt like/feels like an alternate timeline, where i was suppost to go, drifted off and just did actor jobs, acting classes, i can't hardly rerember lines, i'm not an actor, i am, but i can't rerember lines well. Then couple years ago, headed to info tech, now in process knowing its not for me. Sucks, having an IT job, but falling behind. I've been looking at audio engineering, the frequency, sound waves, how they music and all the manipulation of sound and music. I have a equlizer i work on alot, i have 3 audio programs, the windows plain audio realtek, then i added 2 more, and them working all 3 together in synergy, made a good sounds. Adjust the audio for each song. Anyays, don't like saying im going to do something, then don't do it.
just someway want to go back, to the original plan, that keeps coming in my dreams, right after grad in 05. They won't leave, like something to go back and finish that was not done.
anyways, thanks alex for posting to posts, at least i know someone can read my thoughts and emotions, even though can't show them in real life. Have to write them.
thanks alex:) your a good friend
r
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