Posted by sar on May 3, 2001, at 11:20:43
In reply to Re: Lisa Simpson, posted by Lisa Simpson on May 3, 2001, at 6:24:42
Lisa,
I'd like to try cutting down drastically, which might involve a moratorium on drinking altogether for awhile in order to get it all out of my system & get me accustomed to falling asleep completely sober. I want to stick with not blacking out anymore and not even getting completely drunk, tho I would eventually like to return to my old, old pattern--what I consider "normal"--drinking moderately with friends a few times a month. I don't want to drink by myself anymore.
I'm on my fifth or sixth day of prozac now--a good incentive for me, because the pdoc said it wouldn't really be effective if I keep drinking the way I do. If I could cut out drinking completely for the next six weeks or so to see how I like this drug, that'd be perfect.
I haven't been to any more AA meetings...I just don't know if I belong there if I don't quite believe that I'm an alcoholic and if I'm not about to commit myself to a lifetime of sobriety.
Since my last blackout, it's become really apparent to me how much depression and drinking too much feed off one another. My mood has lifted (which could also be attributed to other things, but I'm gonna keep going with this) and I haven't felt like getting trashed since that time...what I seem unable to quit is drinking to mellow out, associating the flavor of my favorite drinks with feeling soothed, and drinking as soon as I feel the slightest bit agitated...
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