Posted by JahL on May 7, 2001, at 13:44:10
In reply to Re: Alcoholics Unite!! - JahL, posted by dreamer on May 7, 2001, at 10:29:02
> > Funnily enough, being a life-long depressive, the only meaningful experiences in my life have been whilst intoxicated!
> > J.
> hello J,
> Same here, binge drinker gave up 2 years ago.Hi pard'ner!
F*ck me; I had the most amazing discussion last night with my elder brother. He left home early & I never really got to know him. Turns out he's not the soft-lad I thought he was; he's a hard-ass drinker (& scrapper!?) who regularly puts away up to 80-100 units (month's allowance!) a session. He's 30 & weighs 10 (!) stone. Apparently I am not the only progeny who has a 'nutter' side to their personality. His doc has just told him he cld keel over dead at any time.
Like me tho', he's not an alcoholic; we both drink (drunk) for the escape from dysphoria getting high provides. He does a 60hr week, has his own house & is about to marry.
The fact my lil' brother also packs it away (w/o problems), serves to increase my conviction I've been mis-diagnosed & am in fact 'soft' Bipolar (III). Notorious substance-abusers. I crawl outta my skin if I'm not in some way high.
> Hows your social life now?
> Is it difficult without the booze the only thing that motivated me socially was the booze [switched to hypomania and less phobic]Wow. Identical. My heavy socialising diminished as my drinking habit did. I was *only* ever a social drinker; I wld come out of my shell when I drank, & got up to all sorts. I now have no inclination to socialise, so I don't. Some wld say this is a poor reflection upon me; I say it's a sad indictment of my condition.
> Now don't feel interested in going out or company,only on pc.
Same. I operate on a functional basis. Go out if I have to. PC is only thing that doesn't wind me up (no personality); can't stomach all the inflated egos on TV/radio. 'Geek' doesn't suit me though...
J.
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