Posted by sid on March 11, 2002, at 21:13:29
In reply to Re: what now?, posted by Mair on March 11, 2002, at 20:44:48
Thanks Mair.
I know... one step at a time.
In fact I always made decisions against having a family until now. I've come to realize that family can be a negative thing in one's life (my family of origin has been in the past), but it does not have to be that way. I find myself dreaming of something different - it wouldn't be hard to improve on my family of origin...
I guess I'm eager for change in my life, after soooo many years of status quo. Nothing has happened to me in so long, except my recent recovery, which is BIG NEWS to me, but which is not a conversation starter in public events... My friends don't even ask anymore what's happening, they've come to expect that nothing would happen with me. I say I feel good, but they don't seem to get what it actually means to me - except 2 of them who I'm closer to, although they live far away.
A life of possibilities... Still having trouble seeing that, mostly because I don't know what I want anymore. One day at a time... for now I've got work to finsh for tomorrow.
Well, thanks again for your input.
- sid
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