Posted by sid on March 13, 2002, at 23:52:41
In reply to Re: what now? Follow your body inner wisdom, posted by Anna Laura on March 13, 2002, at 23:17:30
Thanks Anna Laura, what a nice response.
I do know what you mean. I tend to be too cerebral all the time and need to remind myself to use my gut-feeling more often. I also do research for a living, so I can't just stop being cerebral, but I certainly can try to be less of it in my spare time! Actually today, I had a long talk with a friend and heard myself saying that I wouldn't mind adopting if it turns out that I can't deal with children before long (for all sorts of reasons: meds, financial issues, no current boyfriend, etc.). So many children are abandoned, I'd feel honored to be able to adopt. And I must say, I don't have this very stroing female gut-thing which makes some women have their own children (the 9-month deal) at all costs. There's more to it than that, and so if I have a family some day, it'll be because I'm ready for it - ready to give them a lot and be the best Mom I can be. If depression comes back or if I have to be on meds forever, then I'll rethink this project.I still have some days where I get impatient... I do mourn the wasted years, and I think - isn't it time for my life to get back on track? I've beem working my ass off and nothing has changed in my life for soooo long - no progress in career or in personal life. BUT: progress in my health!!! Yeah. Too bad I can't write that on my résumé:
Achievement: survived several episodes of major depression (1995-2000), dysthymia (1980-2002) and GAD (??-2002).
Wouldn't that be funny? ;-)
Well I hope you do better too soon. And I hope it lasts for me... I keep reading about meds pooping out so I cross my fingers!
- sid
PS: you're from Italy, what city? Just curious, as I have a few friends in Italy.
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