Posted by tabitha on June 25, 2002, at 1:23:03
In reply to Re: med change or not, posted by Fuscia on June 23, 2002, at 18:27:34
Thanks Sarah & Fuscia. I really appreciate your concern and advice.
Sarah, I do have a weekly therapist who I think is pretty great. She is usually available on a pager between sessions, so there's someone there for a sudden crisis. I think you're right though that I need to get more assertive with the pdoc about my status. I don't have the best relationship with him, though at this point he's the best of the ones I've tried.
Fuscia, all your advice was exactly the "voice of reason". At one point I was absolutely in touch with that. I knew that the suicidal thoughts were just like enemies I had to fight, and not to be taken seriously as reality. I also knew my mother's destiny was not mine. Somehow I've lost touch with that. I think maybe the meds worked so well for so long, that I got out of the habit of dealing with suicidal thoughts. I guess it's time to do the cognitive stuff again instead of relying on 100% chemical solution.
The whole thing is not quite resolved, I'm going to wait on the pdoc appointment, and my therapist agreed to monitor me til then.
-tabitha
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