Posted by Miller on December 26, 2002, at 8:28:59
In reply to Re: The saga continues...Chapter 2 » Miller, posted by Dinah on December 24, 2002, at 22:11:33
Dinah,
I honestly feel that I could do any of the horrible deeds from my past again. I do not trust myself. The things I did were wrong. I knew they were wrong when I was doing them (or shortly thereafter). I can't trust myself not to make the sme choices again. Yes, I am a different person now, however, that does not mean that history doesn't repeat itself.
I am ashamed of what I have done. I am MORE ashamed that I can not honestly say that I wouldn't do it all again.
Sometimes evil is masked in other ways. I think maybe I am evil, being masked in the personality and body I have been given.
I will understand if you can't see what I see. I deserve the misery and hurt I have (and will continue to) received. I feel like the saying "what goes around, comes around, applies to me. I am getting what I deserve. I just don't know how long I can stand it. Deserved or not, it hurts.
poster:Miller
thread:33940
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