Posted by Eddie Sylvano on May 7, 2003, at 11:14:11
In reply to Re: somatic/neurologic/emotional » Eddie Sylvano, posted by Dinah on May 7, 2003, at 10:09:08
> I guess it depends on how you define physical.
---------------Anything that's independant of emotion.
>Then time will move it's ordinary way for a while, then back to either fast speed, or I'm in slow motion.
------------I've had periods much like that. I find myself yawning and squinting a lot when things feel that way.
> I can't remember anything. I can't even remember if I've remembered something.
----------Amen to that. Even more so since I've been on Celexa, I find myself at a loss to remember something I had just been thinking 3 seconds ago after a distration interrupts me. Before that, it was mostly forgetting things other people told me, and that was probably because I wasn't listening fully. I've always been the person who shows up to class to find it empty, and wondering why.
> I feel sick and weak. I just don't feel well. In fact I looked up "don't feel well" on the internet last night. Wasn't all that helpful.
----------------That was how I felt several years ago. Just walking around the block was a strain. Always drained, unable to think, losing weight. I thought I was dying. It's not so bad nowadays, but I still have periods where I just feel "malaise."
> During meltdown there is a physical component, too. My skin feels like it's burning and needs to be cut. Smells are way too intense. The wind hurts my arms.
-------------Extreme agitation? The closest I've felt to that is a general feeling of discomfort, like things are plain wrong. Bright lights give me grief (and of course, I live in Florida). How long does that phase last for you?
> Is that the sort of thing you mean?
----------Precisely. Wouldn't you rather trade in all those symptoms for simple moroseness? I guess the grass is always greener. If nothing else, just to have a respite from one or ther other for more than a day or two.
It's so hard to describe some of the more subtle issues, too. Right now, for instance, I feel like my head is too light and disintigrated, it's too cold, my senses are dulled, and the world is slightly beyond me.
On an entirely different topic, do you ever feel like your life lacks continuity? For example, I can't really remember anything about being in high school. Granted, it was 12 years ago, but everyone else has stories about their experiences. I feel like that all happened to someone else, or that I was sleeping through it. It doesn't seem real or relevant to me. I have a few isolated memories of events, but mostly it feels like general knowledge about what happened, and not experience. Like someone told me. All I can relate to is what's happened to me in the last month or so, or sometimes nothing at all. Does that make any sense?
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