Posted by katia on May 21, 2003, at 16:41:34
In reply to Cutting, looking for answers.... « McPac, posted by Dr. Bob on May 21, 2003, at 13:26:32
> > Can someone here explain WHY you cut? Does it release tension or depression? Thanks.
I can't really explain it myself, other than when i'm really at rock bottom, I do harm myself physically b/c I feel there is nothing left to do? I either hit my head against a wall or stratch my arms, neck, or head with my fingernails. An ex-boyfriend witnessed me try to tear out my own throat. (where do you go from here love? dinner?) I have scars from it. It feels like there is so much energy in me that it needs to go somewhere maybe? and it's some what of a release to physically hurt myself. somehow it feels better than the mental. it doesn't make sense even to me, one who does it. Along the same lines of this energy, it feels good to physically get into a fight with my boyfriend/partner (when i can hang onto one due to this tendency!). katia
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