Posted by BarbaraCat on September 6, 2003, at 12:37:08
In reply to ok so who is knowledgeable about meth?, posted by silmarilone on September 4, 2003, at 20:10:45
Oh Yes, pretty darn extensive as I snorted it for 3 years back in the late 60s. I liked the feeling very much, too much. I believe it was my drug of choice because I was very depressed due to my home life and because it actually calmed me down in smaller doses. I don't believe I have classic ADD but do have BP but who knows how the two are linked. But I know I was depressed and it definitely lifted my spirits, mostly at first until it got out of control.
Its primary action is to release the stores of dopamine into the synaptic cleft. There is no reuptake mechanism as with SSRI's, so when the dopamine is used up, the natural stores are depleted and each successive dose is like beating a dying horse.
It nearly killed me, I became emaciated and delusional from lack of sleep and brain toxicity. It has a nasty, dark energy to it, you could feel the dense heavy blackness that eventually snuffs out all lightness of spirit. I was in my late teens and became very strung out, unhealthy and it's amazing I recovered. You end up hanging around with unsavory characters who have only one agenda - to get the buzz. They generally have few teeth left, are gaunt and twitchy and would kill you without much thought for the money to procure more. You end up hanging out with folks like this because it becomes your main focus in life, a kind of communal bonding based on incessant conversing about things that no one else could possibly follow or have any interest in. You lose all your other friends to this Fellowship of Jitterbugs.
Luckily I stopped before I lost teeth or committed crimes, but to illustrate, I was horribly sick with mono and STILL was snorting because I couldnt' stop.
It's an amazingly addictive drug, mostly because of the horrible, awful coming down that impels you to take more just to keep the black depressions at bay. I'm relating a pretty serious Jones, and due to the era, I was also doing more than a healthy amount of hallucinogens. But believe me, there is no 'just doing a little' because using it becomes necessary to just function after only a very short time, especially if you have easy access to it. The need for more to get that buzz escalates quite rapidly. Once you begin snorting it or God forbid, shooting it, you are on a long dark road and you will crave it unceasingly. The only way I stopped was to get away from the town I lived where it was too easy to procure it from said unsavory characters. I craved it for a few years but got majorly into eating and living well and began meditating which doesn't cotton to using drugs. Otherwise, I would be DEAD, no doubt about it.
I had definite biological propensities toward depression anyway, but I believe my neurons have come to recognize and associate it with the bleak black evil qualities learned from my meth withdrawals. - BarbaraCat
> I have some questions about the effects of injecting meth (ice)
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> Anyone have extensive knowledge here?
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