Posted by antigua on March 15, 2005, at 9:46:55
In reply to Life After Addictions, posted by mynamehere on March 14, 2005, at 17:47:01
You aren't a loser, get that thought right out of your head. It's your addicition talking. It's not about strength of willpower, it's about something that has taken control of you that you have to fight.
I'm like you. I could become addicted to anything because I have an addictive nature and I have had some severe trauma in my past that I haven't been able to get over, but I'm working on it.
There is life after addicition and it's a d*mn fine one. But you didn't get this way in a single day so you can't expect there to be an easy answer. It's hard work.
It sounds so trite, but try to just take it one day at a time. If you haven't detoxed, get help w/that first. I went to an outpatient program for several months to gain my initial sobriety over alcohol. This was important to me because I could string a few days or weeks together on my own but I would always return to drinking. The consistency of the program gave me over 60 days when I had to walk out the door of that place. It hasn't been easy or clear sailing since then, but once you put some time together and give your mind a chance to heal from the craziness, you start to recognize the benefits.
Also, think about therapy if you haven't tried that route. For me, my drinking had everything to do w/my emotional problems. Dealing w/them made me understand why I was drinking and I have found other ways to deal w/the stress.
It's a long, hard process but if you really want to do it, you have to believe you can do it and really try.
Meetings, of course, are helpful for many.
If I can be of support, please let me know.
There is hope, though, there really is.
antigua
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