Posted by Susan47 on April 25, 2005, at 15:38:52
In reply to Re: Roth: Suze » Susan47, posted by alexandra_k on April 25, 2005, at 0:58:49
People have said that but that's not it so much for me, it all affects my head. Everything affects my head, I'm a head person. Okay 'nuff. But really, it's just milder, it's more elusive, I have to be very aware because it definitely does not have the same impact. Sometimes it can be very very strong and make me afraid, paranoid that I'm going to be seeing things that ain't there, although that's never happened. This last batch I made is like shortbread, and it's extremely mild. So it's almost like no effect, the effect is just a slight feeling of everything's looking a bit brighter. That's okay, but for the last year and a bit, I've been using MJ to heighten emotional feelings. Because I feel half-dead otherwise. I'm just so used to being stressed out, it's like a requirement for my brain, now. It's a lifetime habit of stress, you know? I'm sure that's why I do/did it. I've really really slowed down. But I don't feel really alive, either. And I miss not having a calm male presence in my life. Men inspire a lot of confidence in me, men are solid, they're wonderful. Not all men, but in general I love their aura.
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