Posted by tecknohed on February 3, 2006, at 23:00:39
In reply to Re: Caffein making me 'mad', posted by deirdrehbrt on February 3, 2006, at 22:17:03
> First, I'm glad that you didn't seriously hurt the child. (I'm also glad the children didn't hurt the swan)
> I'm coming off of caffiene too. I used to drink 2+ liters per day of Mt. Dew. Now I'm down to a cup or two of coffee per day. Tapering works for me because when I quit cold turkey I get incredible migraines.
> I've never experienced violence from quitting though. I did get violent whild drinking, though I never hit anybody. I would throw things and yell and scream. I once threw a chair into my piano.
> I think it might be worth talking to your doctor again, or maybe a therapist. Maybe you just need some other tools for dealing with your emotions now that you're clean. I think you were justified in approaching the kids about attempting to harm wildlife, but striking one of them could get you put in jail. If you have a therapist, that's who I would talk to about this. I don't know what I would do about mentioning the age of the person you struck becaues that is child abuse, and most states have a mandatory reporting law and you could still find yourself in some hot water over this.
> Good luck,
> --DeeThanks for your input.
Believe me, I'm completely aware of the seriousness of my actions. I put my hands up - it was appalling and dangerous, physically (to the boy) and consequently (the trouble I could have/may still get into).
I dont expect people to keep thier opinions to themselves here, yet the reason I told of it was to not only show how much of a problem things are, but also to show myself the reality of it - by reading peoples responses. Other than that, what can I do about it now? (no, I wont shop myself to the police).It wasn't so much the withdrawal that caused the outburst, at least not directly. But I had been withdrawing for 2 days which had left me in a mind set I can only describe as 'dark'. And I can only theorise that the sudden dose of caffeine (probably 300mg+) powered that feeling and just took over (incidentally, I'm still wide awake from that dose 11hrs later). Had I had the espresso an hour before - plenty of time to lift my mood, I honestly think I would have reacted totally differently, and probably not even approached them at all. Having social phobia, approaching them would normally be the last thing I'd do no matter how lifted my mood was, especially as I find children of that age particularly panick-provoking in most situations.
Yes, I definitely need to talk to (hassle) my doctor again.
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