Posted by Cynthia M on May 24, 2000, at 12:36:25
In reply to Re: Cynthia, that's real bad therapy…, posted by Brenda on May 24, 2000, at 11:51:01
BoBB and all of you who have been so supportive of me.... Thnak you so much for such insightful input... I am very greatful for the support I have recieved here . I had a very supportive( manipulative) friendship and I ended up having an affair with her husband.. (democratic definition).. I have moved to be away from these people and I am trying to make it on my own ( with my husband).. I brought these kids into the world and It is my responsibility to see that they get the kind of parenting they deserve... I agree with BoBB that there is probably more to this whole picture than is available on the surface... I in fact just bought a t-shirt that says "Fight Back- Self Medicate" great huh? Anyway, my point, this is a huge trial and I am feeling very much like I have to handle it alone and it isn't just the kids , although they do play an important role, the hardest thing for me right now is impulse control and I feel likethe pdoc, therapists etc are supposed to fix it. Is it my imagination or do they foster a sense of dependence and then pull it out from under you when you feel it necessary to call upon it? Maybe it is just me.... Maybe I should re-focus everything ... I have a brother with bp and he self medicates with pot and alcohol... although he is not employed and does not take full responsibility for his kids (3) My other (biological) brother also self medicates with alcohol.... I am just trying to go by the "rules" and it isn't working.... I am supposed to see the pnurse tomorrow and I guess I will just tell her that I see no point in continuing with a drug therapy that is not working...I am not sure what else there is for them to offer me.... I guess I will find out, maybe they have nothing left...then it will be up to just me....I am not sure what to do then.. any ideas?Thanks for the support- I do appreciate all of the feedback... stay tuned....-Cyndy
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