Posted by Zo on June 24, 2001, at 16:45:18
In reply to Re: New to Psycho-Babble » rmshed, posted by BobJ1961 on June 23, 2001, at 23:17:35
>In fact, going on antidepressants for the first time in my life (at that time) was probably a bad thing, because I took them to treat a "situational" depression.
I'm not so sure that was a bad idea. The way I understand it, and *feel* it, "situational" depression takes the same toll on the dopaminergic and other resources my brain doesn't manufacture very well as does a chemical disruption from within -- and often, it is hard and even pointless to try and distinguish them. I do know if I am not medicated for overwhelming situations, I cannot act on my own behalf, I simply haven't the mental/emotional resilience. And that resiliance is chemical by nature.
>Years later, it turned into a bona fide clinical depression (maybe BECAUSE I messed up my mind/body with antidepressants? I don't like contemplating that possibility < g >).
I don't *think* so. .. ! < g >
>I too have many other medical problems that I seem to be able to cope with when my medications work for my depression.Me too. Back to that resilence factor.
> I am able to function on a daily basis and you would never know if you met me that I have these problems, I have learned to hide them. It has been terrible to act happy at times when I am not. I guess life goes on.
Sorry, I seem to be answering you both at once. Choosing to hide one's depression and other health problems is a tricky one. I do it in part so as to enjoy what does come my way, to participate in shreds of "normal" life, in part because these things are hard for others to deal with, in part because I don't want to go through the pain of seeing others turn away. . .and in part because I lack the foundation of trust that others would care, which I gingerly work to overcome.
Best to you both,
Zo
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