Posted by WAKI on August 10, 2004, at 12:36:43
In reply to Re: Which meds increase dopamine/energy? » Waki, posted by KaraS on August 10, 2004, at 10:02:49
No he did not know why. We were at wits end that nothing was working. He recomended I search a Medical university with some newer up to date findings.
In the mean time he said we have trycilics to try or this new wellbutrin that came out. He did say the XL had a longer half life.
I took it and it was amazing. I kid you not. The next day I got my fat butt off the couch and went to the gym. That same day I threw away all the food crap I had in the house. I threw it away because I felt different. I felt energized and I felt in my heart I did not need poor quality food to get me through the day.
It's really strange a drug could have a impact on somebody so drastic. I could care less if part of it was placebo and part was a chemical balance or if all of it was a chemical balance result.
What i do know is I have not stopped excercising and have continued to eat good food.
My body is going through some extreme chemical changes. I can safely guess that 5 years ago, I could drink 23 beers in one sitting and feel a buzz that was equivlant of lets say a 6 pack when I was in college.
Some friends and I made a pack one night we will never drink that much again. The next two years after that night, I probably drank 3 beers a week if that.
For the next 2 years I probably darnk 1 beer every month.
This last year have not had any beer.
A couple Sundays ago I was with some friends in a pub and I had one of them O'dools non alcohol drinks, Well it has 1/2 of 1% alcohol. About half way through that O'dools, which is nearly nothing I was feeling really tipsy.
Obviously i am not going to even drink an O'dools again.
I know this is a long way of explaining what I'm going through.
But my point is my cravings have become totally opposite and clean.
I can only attribute it to some type of biochemical changes I'm going through.
The only biochemicals I'm changing are these medications they have me on.
It's really sad. My father used to show me pictures of him when he was younger. He was good looking athetlic, just a all around social and friendly good guy. My mom told me he started changing for the worse when he was in his early 20's.
I started to change for the worse in my early 20's.
Well my dad never pulled out of like I did. I lost him at the age I am approaching in 6 years.
The poor guy never had a chance. Back then they just thought people were lazy, un sociable, moody and had no drive.
My mom was constantly telling me I was becomming just like my father. It drove me bonkers because although I loved my father I promised myself i would always stay productive, happy and healthy as I was growing up.
My mother just recently had a long talk with me. She told me she was telling her friends I was not the son she knew. She said she did not know who I had became or why. She said my entire family wondered what ever happend to me.
Well then she said she had been telling all her friends she got her son back. All her friends have been telling me how she is talking about me all the time now as if i had died and came back.
It's kind of a strange thing this depression thing is. You just don't know how bad it is until you feel good just one time.
If you never feel good, how can one know how they are supposed to feel?
They should be teaching this stuff in school.
People need to know that if they become somebody who is not a proud productive person they need to see help.
One would think that insurance companys would initiate people having thier lives evaluated.
I'm just rambling I know. But I just lost 25 years, lost everybody who loved me for 25 years. No all of a sudden one damn pill gives it all back.
There is something wrong that my father died from this illness, I was about dead and insurance companys barely acknowledge it.
If I ran the health care system in this country I would put depression at the top of the list.
I just know it in my heart that all the strokes, heart attacks, alcoholism, over weight, smoking, crimes from bad tempers, and who knows what other crimes.
Since I started to feel better I am getting more and more frustrated with how much loss there is.
I guess it would be more productive of me to contact washington and let them know whats going on. Who knows maybe this was all mean to be and this is my purpose.
I will have to look further in this, because it's not giving people a fair chance at life.
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