Posted by DoubtingAlex on December 1, 2004, at 15:12:41
First of all let me say hello to each and everyone on this board. This board has
been of great help (and a source of hope in the darkest of days) to me.To my topic: 6 months ago I was prescribed Remeron, I was quite a quick responder,
within two days I could feel a difference in my mood and energy levels. And after a week my mood improved
so much that I said to myself; "Endeed I feel >>normal<<", after many years
I could feel emotions and paint my thoughts with them. Then after two weeks the mood suddenlly changed
back to depression for a week and a half, then back to normal for a week and a half and so on and on.
However these periods of depression have gadually become longer and after 4 mounths on remeron,
there is hardlly ever a day with normal mood.
Before Remeron I was on Zoloft, then Effexor (helped in the way that made me emotionally numb)
tried Xanax (had similar effect as Zoloft), Aurorix, tieneptine (both made me worse). And as I look back it seems to me
that my mood always cycled with a period of three weeks (~10 bad with 10 worse days).
Remeron was the only medicine with bad period being lifted to "normal". And also when I stopped taking
Effexor my mood very much improved to normal for two weeks before suddenlly crashing into a black hole.
On this board I came across the term "Bipolar II" but am not sure if I fall in this category.
I must admitt that recentlly I purchased Lithium Orotate and took two capsules the first day
and one capsule the second day. Then I stopped. The first day it seemed as if it is better with feelings back in the evening,
but the second day I felt even more depressed. Although not necesserilly because of trying Lithium. Anyways I didn't
want to take a chance and submerge any circle deeper in hell as I went to work the next day.
Perhaps I'll try it when I'm on a leave for a week or so.I also read something about Lamictal.
But the most important; I want to hear from your opinions and perhaps similar experiences, all
are welcome. Of great value to me are all those of you who disagree in some way and see
something else in my pattern that I don't see right now, my knowledge
and assumptions are very limited and my mind is not a non-discriminative judge in this matter,
my hypothesis may well only be what I want to believe right now.I am to myself the biggest assumption! (Carl Jung)
Alexander
poster:DoubtingAlex
thread:422954
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20041201/msgs/422954.html