Posted by DoubtingAlex on December 8, 2004, at 15:08:05
In reply to Re: Remeron pooping out - Maybe Bipolar II » DoubtingAlex, posted by barbaracat on December 4, 2004, at 13:38:59
I added just 25mg of Zoloft to my 15-22 mg of Remeron and I believe it brought to me such a boost in emotions and in the period of no more than few hours. Like if I would strike my depression with a balanced spear right in the heart heart. I feel very stable, deep-minded and don't question myself why something essential is missing nor do I feel sensless and numb, I feel a satisfaction inside of me. Yesterday when I came back from my work, I layed down to my bed just from a great need to listen to and shape my thoughts with emotions. I must state that I don't feel mania or hypomania, my thoughts don't race, I'.m not agitated or hyoeractive. I am just calmed down and see everything in different perspective with all the limitations that are put in someone's life, But strangelly I feel intellectually strong. And when I went just for a walk three days ago in the late evening, I felt determined, my step was firm, not somewhat uncertain and weak like I always felt. This firmness trully came from inside of me and I could feel it. I really felt as if "I know where I'm going" in my life and didn't care for all those to whom I felt like crip when compared to.
Yet, I want to say something completelly different from what I'm saying, but am unable to express it. I know how devastating depression was and how my life was ruined because of it, but yet don't feel as if I lost a part of my life.
Now in the evenings when I shape my thoughts with feelings... - just don't know how to say this, everything is taking some form and I feel great about it.
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