Posted by JenStar on June 10, 2005, at 13:25:39
In reply to Feedling desperate, posted by pretty_paints on June 10, 2005, at 10:05:01
hi pretty_paints,
hopefully the doctor won't drop you just because you said you were in love with her. It doesn't sound like you're a threat to her or yourself. It DOES sound like you develop infatuations and obsessions with people - that you can't live daily life without being infatuated with someone. It seems, from what you mentioned, that it's your sort of "modus operandi" to have an infatuation to keep you excited and interested and involved.It doesn't mean that you're crazy or that you'll turn into a stalker. I think it means you have a lot of excess love and care and attention and no one on whom to lavish it.
Is there another outlet for your emotions, love and energy? If there is no current boyfriend, can you devote some of that energy onto yourself? Maybe pamper yourself some - work out, do nice things that you like. For other people, maybe getting involved with volunteering as a side job? Doing work at a pet shelter? Writing a book? Voluteering to tutor at-risk kids?
Hopefully your therapist will talk about WHY you seem to get infatuated with people, rather than just shove you off onto someone else. It might not JUST be the meds - it might be part of your personality. Maybe you're just the kind of person who can be extremely devoted and loyal and loving. You just haven't yet found the right "repository" or object for your devotions!
Does any of that make sense at all? Does it seem "right?" Sorry if I'm completely off the mark.
I hope you feel better soon.
take care!JenStar
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