Posted by jealibeanz on August 29, 2006, at 20:13:13
Well, here is goes, I know many of you a quite familiar with my story, since I've been posting in detail lately. I have an appointment with my doctor on Saturday. We need to change the Lunesta and address the depression, for real, not as a side note.
I basically plan on going there and actually showing my true distress, discomfort, unhappiness, hopelessness, and frustration. The pain is a combination of recent struggles, within the last few months/year and the struggles throughout my life. I've come to realize how that my minor, but persistent and pervasive disorders may very well result in me having to settle for an unsuccessful lifestyle that I don't want, since I've never consistently or effectively treated them.
I hope I can do this, instead of acting like the happy-go-lucky, endearing, model patient I tend to be in the office. If I truely let my guard down, there's no mistaking that I'm a person who needs medical help, not just a couple words of encouragement. I can no longer present myself as the PA student with great potential. I am the patient, who's in need of help.
I honestly don't even think I'm a hard case. I just need persistent treatment to find something that works for my insomnia/depression/ADHD/anxiety.
I basically plan on coming in with major distress about the insomnia, telling him how horrible it is, that I can't go on like this anymore, not one more minute. My life is slowly deteriorating. They say that burning to death is the worst way to go. Someone might wanna step into my world. I think I'd rather take buring (as sick as that sounds, it's true, this is my real pain) than my current state.
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