Posted by MCush on October 1, 2006, at 13:11:47
In reply to Re: For 4WD » MCush, posted by 4WD on October 1, 2006, at 12:47:04
do you ever do things while in that state that you later regretted or saw were foolish?I could write a multi-volume book on the amount of things that I do while in an elevated state that I later regret and felt when I looked back on them that they were definitely stupid.
As soon as any amount of pressure is put on me that it outside of my control then I spin out of control and that is usually the first result. I start to do really stupid things.
But even in the course of every day life... I'll go Grocery Shopping and spend over $400 on food and there are only 3 of us living here. I'll come home with the Groceries and my Father will usually just look at me, like, ummm, ok.... so I guess you were hungry?
This Term I signed up for 5 Distance Education Courses knowing full well that I was sick and might not even make it through one with good results. I had to withdraw from four of them after my Doctor asked me what the Hell I was trying to do to myself.
I would usually rather read a book then watch TV so I try to keep good books around here to read. I have over 60 right now untouched and still can't stop adding to the collection.
If I go to a Buffet I'll either overeat to the point where I can't move or actually throw up.
Those are just the physical actions though. My Father says that my motto towards everything and anything is "more is better".
I'm not sure which is worse though... the things that I do or the things that I say.
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