Posted by extremethings on October 4, 2007, at 18:34:04
In reply to Re: dysphoric mania, posted by polarbear206 on October 2, 2007, at 21:51:58
I've made an appointment to see my doctor Tuesday. I'm taking off of work to go- I say it like I feel guilty. I've always had a hard time taking care of myself, the right way. I have never come clean with my doctor- I trust her and I like working with her, but to be honest I've been afraid of the truth. I know what I should be doing, but it is like I can't stop, until I'm so miserable again that I have to or I'll kill myself. Then, I start to get help and as soon as I feel better, I begin to drift away, back into my own insanity. Thank you for being honest- I need to hear the truth, whether or not I want to. I know I need to come clean, that has been the hardest thing. And my husband and I, well we love smoking together. We've never not smoked together- 9 years, and I've been smoking since 12. And with my illness, my husband is great, most of the time. But that has been a long time coming- we both are learning how to understand me, communicate with me, and cope with the roller coster of intesnse emotions. I have to completely change the way I care for myself, and I dont know how.
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