Posted by iforgotmypassword on April 18, 2008, at 11:36:43
In reply to Re: morning » iforgotmypassword, posted by SLS on April 18, 2008, at 5:42:50
> > ability to perform tasks obviously even worse now, cannot DO steps. i am lucky when i somehow get through one, my mind exhausts and i forget what the next (sub-)step was. i get confused over just taking my medication. that can't be a major task of the day.
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> I am very sympathetic to your plight. My cognitive and memory functions were the most severe of my deficits due to depression.
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> > i have a work placement in 1 hour.
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> Good luck.
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> The most you can do is use all of what little God gives you to work with. I hope you will be pleasantly surprised by your efforts.
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> A moderate amount of caffeine always helped me to perform better. Just don't use this strategy too often, or it will produce diminishing returns.
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> - Scott
>(sorry, this is more, you don't have to read or answer. typing alone seems to be helping a bit.)
lorazepam may have helped today. i was surprised i even got there, i did pretty okay i think, but the tasks are mainly just walking and looking (for discarded needles, biohazard risks), the 'shifts'/routes are only 2 hours long, and the whole placement is part of the same organization and all workers are literally required to have struggled with mental illness. i only do 6 hours a week and finding other work is essential to the main part of the programme.
do you know the brain regions and chemical activities associated with regret, dwelling, cannot focus your mind off of past humiliation and regrets. i find my unshakable hesitance strongly adds to paralysing me, especially socially.
it seems GABA helps, may be how nardil helps with social anxiety, but i want to avoid any drunkeness, impairing my cognition and reasoning, replacing a helpful amount of positive mental and physical dislodging from my paralysis, with unhelpful impulseiveness and loss of intuition.
i would need to be able to resolve things in my head by being more with it, not less with it.
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