Posted by iforgotmypassword on April 16, 2008, at 17:38:24
In reply to Re: how long until you noticed effect from amantad » iforgotmypassword, posted by SLS on April 16, 2008, at 14:53:54
you don't have to read this. just posting a response in case it may be useful, i still feel urgency. i am typing, which is a good thing. someone else may be reading too. i don't know.
> > -i should talk more about my initial response, which was very notable. it worked particularly well with alcohol, go figure. GABA?
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> Yes.i feel i can dislodge with lorazepam, this has helped me get things done, enough times it has been plainly essential. again, response has not been ideal or reliable. sometimes i can get a bit drunk, goofy, and inappropriately uninhibited on it, sharing private issues/thoughts, and doing things quite strangely that i regret later. this is quite bothersome, even though this is already part of my muddled unreliable activated-akathitic/deactivated nonsense.
> > tangent, but i kind of fear adrenergic activity as it seems maybe or likely linked to aging (breaking down collagen, for energy of all things?),
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> I didn't know that.i think i confused this. if i remember it's cortisol that apparently attacks collagen, and atomoxetine ups its levels apparently.
>I know you are impaired and anergic. It can be discouraging. I hope you and your doctor continue to search for alternatives. Thinking "outside the box" might be necesssary.i am not really anergic. "avolitional" is the word i feel is important, decisions and tasks paralyse. i can be (anergic), and that has been a dominant problem before. i tie my problems to dopamine in another known way, my susceptibility to tardive movement sx/EPS, e.g. my screwball sensations in my hands and jaw, daytime bruxing, forced blinking and scrunching, akathitic feelings and stiffness feeling very closely related. this includes stiffness of my mind. also, i *still* produce milk after discontinuing risperidone MONTHS ago (sept), yet much less. still kind of strange.
this has led me to suspect/theorize my brain's ability to use dopamine just doesn't work. perhaps now, also the increase of dopamine, cannot be predictable and thus not useful, despite the fact that i may clearly need better dopaminergic function.
i also have thought about GABA, more so a month ago, but since neurontin was more than a little wierd/no epiphany, i just keep my prn of lorazepam with me... (i can never seem to get addicted to ANYTHING, which according to goldstein, is a hallmark of CFS. whew.)
there is just no such thing as a diagnosis for me. system is just blown.
i should look at more GABA related stuff, but my cognitive uselessness and scattering makes me ambivalent about drugs that may cause further impairment.
sorry this is long.
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